Friday, August 17, 2012

Wanderlust.

my thoughts come and go with the changing winds
hard to grasp and therefore to explore
yet change is the only constant i feel in my heart

The great minds of our world teach us that discovering our true self, the part of ourselves that is inherently divine and at peace, is the only way to live through this life full of chaos and disorder. Should I ever make it to this state of contentment, I would believe it to be my greatest achievement. In a world driven by the greed of another dollar, this timeless solution to unhappiness is so much harder to reach. I can only hope that with enough diligence, awareness, and love this pure state can be achieved, not only by myself, but by anyone with the desire or need to do so. If we all need somebody to love, why shouldn't we start within ourselves?

Sunday, January 8, 2012

New years resolution

Keep dreaming! Don't fall into a rut of doing the same thing everyday or else you'll turn into a dulled, and sometimes transparent, version of yourself. If your dreams are constantly in the forefront of your mind, not only will they seem more achievable, they will keep you vibrant and alive! No more wishing for the past and much more of appreciating the present! Be so alive that you inspire others! And finally, work towards your dreams until they become a reality.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Cages aren't just made of metal

Commitment FEAR Love FAMILIARITY Love HAPPINESS Unknown LOVE Masochist WHAT IF Desire HOPE Love PRACTICALITY Passive ILLUSION Love CONSEQUENCES Commitment FEAR Love FAMILIARITY Love HAPPINESS Unknown LOVE Masochist WHAT IF Desire HOPE Love PRACTICALITY Passive ILLUSION Love CONSEQUENCES Commitment FEAR Love FAMILIARITY Love HAPPINESS Unknown LOVE Masochist WHAT IF Desire HOPE Love PRACTICALITY Passive ILLUSION Love CONSEQUENCES Commitment FEAR Love FAMILIARITY Love TRUST  Unknown LOVE Masochist WHAT IF SOMEONE LET ME OUT Love PRACTICALITY Passive ILLUSION Love CONSEQUENCES Commitment FEAR Love FAMILIARITY Love HAPPINESS Unknown LOVE Masochist WHAT IF Desire HOPE Love PRACTICALITY Passive ILLUSION Love CONSEQUENCES Commitment FEAR Love FAMILIARITY Love HAPPINESS Unknown LOVE Masochist WHAT IF Desire HOPE Love PRACTICALITY Passive ILLUSION Love CONSEQUENCES Alone UNDERSTANDING
Desire HOPE Love PRACTICALITY Passive ILLUSION Love CONSEQUENCES Commitment

These arms that hold me.

My quality of vision has steadily been going down. Is it because I'm getting older or do I just not want to see what's right in front of me? WHY CAN'T I BE WHAT I WANT. GOD DAMNIT

You would think this kind of frustration would push me to rise above inconsequential things. You would think with all the thinking I do, I would find a way to create something better. Yeah, you would think...

Saturday, November 26, 2011

Om Namah Shivaya

"I honor the divinity that resides within me"


What does that mean to me? I recognize that I have the potential to carry that belief with me everyday just as I carry my purse. I even believe I can spread that feeling of contentedness and love to others around me, if only I was able to keep a firm hold on that fleeting feeling of joy. But how do I keep it from slipping through my fingers? Since I function better when everything is sorted and in it's rightful place, I'm going to do the only rational thing and make a list.

1. Don't think about impressing anyone, especially yourself.
2. Find the joy in your life, whether it be a lifelong passion or a great novel, and then never let it go.
3. Do something creative at least one time per day.
4. Do what you can to brighten someone's day.
5. Spend some time everyday sitting in silence.

If someone wants to achieve enlightenment and happiness badly enough, and makes a conscious effort in getting there, I truly believe the universe will gladly accommodate to their plea. That's the catch though. Making the effort is the part of the equation that so many people forget about in their search for peace. Happiness and peace are like faraway countries that require hard work and time before you can plan on visiting. You can't give up when you don't arrive there instantly. After all, traveling takes time and it will most definitely tire you out, but when you finally do arrive, you will wonder why you ever thought to just stay home.


Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Behind Closed Doors

      Tom was an ordinary man with ordinary habits. He drank two cups of coffee each morning while watching the news, and never forgot to take out his trash cans on Tuesday night.  Tom led a modest life with hardly any luxuries and his choice of career was no different. However, what he discovered while washing windows for the big cats downtown was anything but modest. 
      It was mid-October last year when Tom first saw all of Miss Del Fino. Oh he had seen her before, in and out of the building he works for regularly, but this time she wasn't wearing her usual business suit that made Tom's bank account tremble at the thought of such wasteful spending. In fact, there wasn't a single overpriced piece of silk or cashmere on that woman. Yes. Tom had unintentionally figured out one of the residents of Hightower Ave. was also a high paid member of the Va Va Voom Girls. That was the first of many secret lives that Tom would soon uncover, and not one of them knew their private lives weren't so private anymore.
      For instance, Sally Marshall, an old widow with more cats than friends nowadays, had a great fondness for a certain Mary Jane. The young med student in 251 would rather utter lines from Shakespeare than study surgical procedures. And it seems the seemingly put-together p.e. teacher at the nearest high school was doing a whole different type of exercise on a pole, and it wasn't pull-ups. 
      At first, Tom didn't know what to make of these discoveries. He couldn't talk to any of these people anymore knowing what happens behind closed doors, or more appropriately, behind their not so closed windows. After all, if they knew Tom knew of their shameful indulgences, how would he continue to see what they were up to. You see, Tom was an ordinary man with ordinary habits. At least, that was what his neighbors would say about him, just like Miss Del Fino and the med student's neighbors would say about them. The truth is, behind those not so closed windows, lurked a peeping Tom trying to disguise some secrets of his own.          


Thursday, September 15, 2011

How Much Is Enough?

Whenever the debate to end something comes up, whether it be a career or a relationship, there's always the question of what if. Some people are very skilled at just letting things go, but, there's people like me who just can't NOT explore all the outcomes. Why is that? Why do we hold on to things so desperately even though we may know they aren't healthy? I think everyone would rather have it not work out and be heartbroken than having the 'what if' constantly hanging over their heads. This is such a struggle for most people. It's so sad that everyone is so prone to misery and will constantly seek it out, even if they don't know they're doing it! I guess that's the sad truth of life though. It's easier sometimes to be comfortably miserable than to risk trying for happiness.